CONFESSION_003: FATHER (2023)
“For the past week, I've been going back and forth on whether to release this third and final chapter in the state that it is in. My parents have already seen it, so the intended audience is out of the way, and I’ve already screened a cut of it twice to a reasonably sizable audience. But I keep going back to my editing timeline and tweaking things—I keep thinking I could make it better, I could dig deeper. After all, this is the culmination of everything I’ve done thus far in this mini personal-project side quest of mine. But I’ve decided the best thing I can do is release it now and just be done with it. Free myself up to new projects and new possibilities. Making these films was a psychological journey more than a creative one, and this film, arguably more than the first two, is one I felt, rather than thought, while making it. And for that, it is a product of its time, and I have to respect my past self and his creative integrity. Going back and ironing out flaws might become an act of erasure—an act of present-me sweeping my past flaws under the rug. So I release this now as a reminder of where I was creatively and mentally a month or two ago—and hope that I can use it as evidence of how much I’ve grown and how much I still have left to grow. A special thanks to my parents.” Made at NYU Tisch (Sophomore Year).